Current mood:

contemplative

And I think it's going to be alright, yep the worst is over now
Just about every woman I know, regardless of her age or relationship status, has that ex in her past.
That ex that was either emotionally or physically abusive, cheated, lied, just was an overall crappy boyfriend that will always be the one that makes us shudder to think what went through with that person.
I am sure that most men also have one of those exes lurking in their past.
They pop into our heads at the strangest time, sometimes I still hear his little critical voice in my head while I am driving.  A friend has been hearing her abusive ex while she is in the kitchen.

I just say "Fuck you and get out of my car" to the voice in my head, and it goes away.

I should have said it to the person when it all started, it would have saved me alot of hurt in the long run.  I think it is one of those things that one has to go through in order to really learn from it.  At least, I had to go through it to learn to not settle for sub-par treatment just because I feel a little lonely.

On one hand I wish it was possible to just let go of the memories of being used and hurt by someone like that.
On the other hand, maybe having that wince reaction to those memories  ultimately makes us stronger and more capable of standing up for ourselves and not allowing that kind of abuse to happen again.


Whenever those memories pop into my head, I like to think of this song, and it makes me feel better:
The Cyrkle's Red Rubber Ball